Well, I knew today that my ex-fiancee got engaged and although we both decided a year ago that our lives will never meet, I still held my love for her. During the last year I had regular weekly dreams of her but my mind just refused to give in to emotion and now that the opportunity is quite blocked I can feel my love fading away.

Just wanted to commemorate the date so I get to see it later on in my life when all this seems like a joke because [this is for you future me] it hurts like hell to let go of your love - Logical or not.

Certainly that concerns neither my followers nor the people who will see this on my public page but I wanted it out before my dark thoughts take over and rule my world as usual.

Back to usual tumbling then.